Getting Stress When Dieting

All my life I've seen so called fat. Tried diets after diets with permanent results. I lose, I gain what good is that. I'm not mentally ready and the cost of following a diet with a consultant and/or food is so so expensive. Unless you're ready you will not lose weight. Tired of the whole situation. I turned to amateur photography to take the edge off, Doctors orders I need to try to work on my diet. I went to Herbal Magic today, it all sounds good but way way too expensive for me.